HEARTY MAN SLEEP?

DEAD JOURNAL IS DEAD.

Sat, 03 May 2008 16:35:35 GMT

So I made a new lj, with a less-ghey name, and hopefully just less ghey overall.
You can find it at: http://fuckinpigs.livejournal.com/
Go add it, now.

Jeez. D:

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 23:22:36 GMT

Did nearly EVERY man back in the 40s through 60s look alike to everyone else, too?
Or is it just me?

I was looking at this picture of Dr Mengele, and, man! D:
It's not that they were all ugleh back in the day...just...similar...

Why...?

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 16:26:35 GMT

Every single time I see something Japanese written in romaji, I suddenly picture it written in my head in romaji, too - unless it's U!! D:
Like, if someone says 'arigato' I think to myself, "A-R-I-G-A-T-O．．．う！！"
ARGH. WHYYYY do I do that!? What's wrong with meee? D:< Dammit!

Oh well.

I'd might as well just get used to the fact that I'm a freak and always will be. Pffft.

Haha, oh God.

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 03:37:02 GMT

So, I haven't read Peggy's [ of the Candy Spooky Theater ] diary in a looong time. Apparently he's been writing in English for a while. XD

In his latest entry he says his anus hurts and he keeps taking off his clothes.
Ahahaha~~ Oh, Peggy. What will we do with you?

ANYWHO. Yesterday I went to Kate's party, had fun, bleached my hair some more, hung out on top of her RV while waiting for the sun to rise, went inside to watch Nickelodeon with most of our friends before the sun actually rose, tormented Hallie, seduced a cat. . .It was overall an awesome time. Although, I REALLY need to work on climbing out of/into windows. My hands hurt. ((>A<))
. . .
Or maybe Kate's parents shouldn't have a beepy thingy on the front door. DX

ARRRRRGH.

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 05:47:47 GMT

Wow. Now I know why I don't usually get on the computer after 23:00 even if I get the chance.
My mad spelling skillz go straight to hell.

Anywho. I was just browsing fanfiction.net - oh the horror D: - when I came across a fic whose description was all "Blah blah blah. . .gay pairing. . .blah blah blah. . .no slash* maybe."

えぇ?
Eh?

Obviously, I was very angry at the author for confusing me so and came straight to LJ to bitch about it in yet another pointless journal entry. Also, I didn't read it.

*slash pairings are pairings of the homosexual persuasion, I believe it pertains mostly (entirely?) to males. Also known as yaoi and gay. Which is weird, when you realise that gay used to mean 'happy.' Maybe it's not weird to anyone but me, though. Huh.

まったく．．．

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 00:52:25 GMT

I really need to stop agreeing to go to every single party my friends have. At this point, I'm pretty sure any chances of saving any substantial amount of money for the relatively pricey - for MY jobless, teenager-y ass, anyway - things I want are gone. Now, if this were just a regular, non-birthday party, or if my sister hadn't left town yesterday before I could ask for an advance on my allowance to give Kate a present as well as having a bit of spending money for myself, it would all be good. Unfortunately, that's not how things worked out, and there's really nothing I can do but get a ride from someone to Kate's party and give her the money I have left over from the Legends and maybe a pretty picture.

We're going to meet up at the mall for a few hours before going back to Kate's house, supposedly, but without any money of my own, I guess I'll just have to. . .er. . .'grin and bare it.' S'not like I really NEED anything from the mall, anyway. I'd kind of like to get a new issue of SHOXX or CURE, but I don't have room on my J-wall [ a name I came up with just now for the wall with all of my J-rock/Visual Kei posters/pictures/lyrics/random dried rose/whatever ] anyway. Although, there is ONE blank spot above my stero that's been empty for over a year now. . .

BUT WHATEVER, DUDES. I haven't the money, anyway. . . *dies*

Truth be told, though, I really should be focusing on more important matters right now.

I'm also a teenager, though, so I'm sure that's to be expected. Focusing on little, trivial things.

But that's really no excuse.

So.

. . .

Fucking teenagers.

Fucking adults.

Fucking people.

ilu, bby. ;0

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 18:16:45 GMT

Mana. . .
So gorgeous. . .
キャーーー　（＞／／／＜）

*ahem*

So, this morning I was supposed to go with my sister and our mother to pick up my little brother from camp. I had to wake up at 4:30 because we were leaving at 5:00, but before I even got out of my bed I was like 'Fuck that. I'll see him later, anyway~' and so I went back to sleep. Originally I had intended to just stay up all night so that I could sleep in the car for the 3 hour trip there, however. . .I couldn't help but fall asleep at about 3:00. If there had perhaps been something more interesting on television or if I hadn't already read all of my books and magazines several times before, I might have made it. But alas.
Alas.

Hehe, I like that word. 'Alas.'
It's neat.

I guess the only reason I've been writing here for the past few days is that I can't write any notes on Facebook because I'm still selling stuff in that one note I made. Speaking of which, I've made about $27 so far. Nowhere near enough for the graphics tablet I was eyeing, but it's a start.

Yesterday, I don't think I meantioned that that was the first LJ cut I'd ever made. 8D It's fuuun. And, uh, space-saving. Cough cough. Yeah.

My medicine always makes me so sleepy. Like now. It's 13:07 and I just wanna go back to bed. Fully clothed and made up, even.
Goddammit.
I fucking hate generic medicine. DX

Actually, I don't know if the name-brand stuff would make me sleepy, too. That's what I USED to take and I don't really recall being sleepy. . .

Mummy, Money, Tablet, Shit.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 00:54:28 GMT

Last night, I sat down and made a list of the things I absolutely MUST buy before anything else - save for the Harry Potter book cough cough - and it looks like

Graphics Tablet ( So that I can FINALLY put SOMETHING on my deviantART, and also so that I can draw with something other than notebook paper, my Marilyn Monroe pen, and my sub-par drawing pencil thingies. What can I say? I like trying new things. D;
Also, when I get too violent and I'm writing/drawing on the back of a picture because I'm listening to 「残-ZAN-」 or something similar, I often times rip through about twenty pages in my enthusiasm. . . )

Moi dix Mois rucksack ( Which I've actually wanted for quite some time. The first time I saw it on CDJapan I was all 'OHHELLYES." But alas, I had no funds for such frivolous things at the time. . . ;A; )

Photoshop ( But actually I was considering being bad and getting it from LimeWire. . .or if one of my friends had it. . .But the tablet I'm looking at comes with it, so. . .I dunno. I don't know much about these sort of things. :/ )

Hello Kitty digital camera ( I saw this at ~~Hot Topic~~ a store when I was out at the Legends. It was so cute! Plus, I don't have a camera of my own yet, so...it would be nice. Also, it is cheap. ;3 Hm. I can't help but wonder if I would be better off buying something more expensive [and better quality?], non-Hello Kitty camera. Hmhmhm. Would my photography teacher get pissed off if I asked about digital cameras when school starts up? Or will s/he beat me to death with my 35mm camera for being all digital-y? )

Clipboard ( Actually, I think I may still have one in one of the boxes I haven't unpacked in the past two years...What? I'm moving in August again ANYWAY. )

I'm currently selling all of my comics except for Pet Shop of Horrors, Cafe Kichiouji de, and J-Boy on Facebook, and then whatever doesn't get sold there - although, Phil DID mention maybe buying everything to piss everyone else off and to make me happy...though he could've been joking - goes to eBayyyy. Not that I suspect to MAKE very much money or anything...
I'm only selling about 70 comics, a number of Shonen Jump/Shojo Beats, 2 CDs and...uh...11 DVDs. I'm selling all three of my Invader Zim DVDs, but that's 'cause I want the house box. Really, really bad. <33 I want Squee! too...mhmm...

And while I'm in a Jhonen Vasquez-related state of mind, I've been reading JTHM fanfiction, lately...just out of curiosity and indescribable boredom.
Let me just tell you something, folks, the great majority of fics I read were just AWFUL. They made me want to vomit all over my keyboard and gouge my eyes out so that I could never read fanfiction again. Everrrrr.
Actually, I think you'll find most - or a great majority of - fanfiction is horrible, anyway.

I still like doujinshi, though. 8D

Sooo, my mummy came over to-day. She made spaghetti for dinner and I burned myself on my tea again trying to convince her to eat her fucking lima beans. She refused and I died a little on the inside. It was all very sad. Sad and delicious.

Dear Diary

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 23:13:44 GMT

Today I feel kind of a mix of different things - not to worry, though, I won't bore you with details or anything. lolol.

I've been thinking, and I really wish I had a different name. Something. . .European-y, perhaps. Doesn't matter anyway, though, I'm going to have to change my name if I get a sex-change. 8D
Wouldn't that be cool?
I still wouldn't know what to call myself, though. . .hrm. . .

Right now I'm using the alias of 'Ciel.'
Why?
Well. . .

It's French. And everybody loves French. Except people who aren't French. Or me.
It's easier [and more fun] to write in Japanese. This is important. Somehow.
My initials are 'C(R)L'. So it's like my initials, but also a name/word.
I'm a loser. Lolz.

So, yes, Ciel.
I quite like that. . .

As for my man-name, though. . .

Actually, I've changed my mind. Maybe staying a girl is cool, too.

...

Actually, fuck that. I want to be [ the first? ] female-to-male transvestite.
If that made sense. :]

...

Actually, I don't care.

kbai.
≪ケイバイ。≫

THE LEGENDSSSSS.

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 18:55:40 GMT

Writing notes on Facebook is fun and all, but still...LJ is just better for writing actual journal-y, diary-ish entries, you know? [ Not that I'm going to do one today. 8-D ]

Anyway, I went to the Legends yesterday with some friends. It was really fun. We went to Hot Topic, Nebraska Furniture Mart [lolz], McDonald's [for lunch], Game Stop, Books a Million, and ALMOST went bowling. The wait was too fucking long, though. There were, like, 25 people who showed up for the Naka-Kon reunion-y thing and it was really fun to walk around in a big group like that, going into stores and places~
Also, Wolfie brought onigiri, which was yummy.

It was too hot outside, though. . .I was dying of thirst half the time.

At BaM I bought volume 9 of Yamatonadeshiko Shichihenge - which I finished reading last night, of course - and went on an unsuccessful hunt for JTHM comics at Hot Topic. [ I have the director's cut, but I just think it would be cool to have the individual comics, too. ] See, I figured that since they have them at the HT in the Great Plains Mall [ which is the one I go to normally ] they would have them there, too. But alas, I did not see them. Saw a really neat Hello Kitty digital camera, though. Next time I have enough cash, I'm so getting it.

I don't have a camera and I LOVE Hello Kitty, so...it makes sense, right? Yeah. It does. A whole bunch.
I still have like twelve or thirteen bucks left, and considering I came with 25, I guess that's not too bad.

All in all, I had a blast and hope to do it again sometime. I love hanging out with my friends all day. :3
Even though Natasha, Phil, Kate, Dayna, etc. couldn't make it. >>;;
I still had Sarah, Irene, Wolfie, Gavin, Jes, and the other bajillion people there from N-K. <3

I Dream of Hippo

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 13:32:48 GMT

I had a weird dream last night...
The only part of it I REALLY remember is that I had to pet a hippo...
It felt cold and wet...like a dog's nose...
I think I was afraid it would bite me or something, so I was a little nervous.

....

lol@me.

The Marrow of a Bone.

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 12:57:45 GMT

Uhhh...okay.
I actually bought this album a couple weekends ago, but whatever.
I've had plenty of time to listen to it now, so I THINK I'm ready to actually state my opinions on it.

'Kay, so, a couple weekends ago, we were at Best Buy, getting my sister a new phone.
I decided that I wanted to see if they happened to be selling any Dir en grey CDS [not that I'd thought they would have anything besides Withering to Death, if I was lucky].
They did, however, have ONE copy of [the American release of] the Marrow of a Bone.
Right quickly I snatched it up and examined it.
I found myself giggling at the PARENTAL ADVISORY label.
[I realised moments later that this was probably due to the somewhat excessive usage of 'fuck'.]
So, yeah. We bought that [ okay I bought that, with MY money >>;; ] and my sister's phone, and went home.

I went right up to my room, opened the CD, turned on my stereo-thingy, plugged my headphones in, cranked the volume up, and then, of course, I began listening to the CD.

Alright, let me just say this now:

The Marrow of a Bone > Withering to Death.
By a long-shot.
Not to say that WtD wasn't a WONDERFUL album. I just like the Marrow of a Bone a bit more.

I feel there's a lot more singing and a lot less screaming on this one, and that makes me happy, because Kyo's voice is beautiful.

As for the re-recorded version of Clever Sleazoid at the end, uh...
I actually liked the original one better.
Mainly 'cause I could hear the English better. D;

And then, there's the lyric book.
The ink was waaaaaay too dark. I couldn't read anything on it at all, and I could barely see the cover picture.
I'm not sure if it's like that on the Japanese version, too, but it's kind of upsetting. (-__-)#

Still though, it's a wonderful album, well-worth the cash, and - who the fuck am I talking to?

[I want the special Japanese release, too, with the bonus CD...Someone has to buy it for me as an early birthday present. >>;;;]

OMG.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 21:56:55 GMT

NOTE TO SELF: invest in a large stock of instant coffee.

That, or stop being lazy and learn to work the coffee machine. 'Cause, like, regular coffee tastes better.

Althoooooough...instant coffee is instant...

Update desu~~~~

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 16:07:50 GMT

So, here is an update on the whole cosplay group thing:

We are no longer a group, and so we can go as whoever we want.
I'm getting the 'Bou' haircut, and I'll proably just be dressing in a general Visual or Oshare kei look for the weekend.
Complete with makeup, of course. ;D

I'm very exciting about this.

[Hah. XD]

*twirl*

Oh, and I'm home sick from school, today.
Lol ew.

EDIT:
And Happy Merry Valentine's Day, no one. <3

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 20:33:49 GMT

I'M COLD. DX

LOL OH NO.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 02:37:58 GMT

I forgot to mention - Dir en grey: not happening.
Everyone else copped out, so...yeah.
[Fuckers. >__>;;]
I guess I'll have to hope they come back to America next year or something...

I'm going to Naka-Kon in March, though...so...huzzah.
I'll be in a group with friends, cosplaying as Antic Cafe.
I REALLY fucking wanted to be Bou, but Sarah "claimed" it.
I don't think it's fair, 'cause I've liked them longer and have been talking about getting my hair cut like Bou's for a while...fuckers...
And Kate gets to be Kanon - my SECOND choice! - and Monika is fucking Miku - I wanted to be Miku, too! - so now I'm Teruki, apparently.
I have NOTHING against Teruki - he's totally wicked! <3 - but I wanted to be one of those other three more...mostly Bou 'cause of the hair.
True, I may not have the right 'complexion' for Bou's white hair, but at lease I don't have to get WEAVE [Sarah. >>;;].

This is SUCH bullshit.
Maybe I'll dress up like Bou, anyway, though...

Peach-y~

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 02:16:24 GMT

So, like, I totally went to the library after school today.
And I kept, like, smelling something really, really nice.
I thought it was Kate or Sarah [nevermind Roland - he's a boy. A boy that wouldn't wear fruit-scented body spray] and then I realized it was me. :''D

Heheh~ I was so happy about that...
Even now I can smell the light peach fragrance...

Er, anywho, I've four penpal letters that I need to write replies to...
[Originally, I had two like everyone else, but I went up to Sheeran-sensei after class and asked her what a Japanese sentence in ony of my letters said, and somehow ended up accepting two more from her decent-sized stack of letters that we hadn't gotten yet, do to the 2 letters-per-person thing.]

LOLOLOLOL.

Whatever.
They're all cool.
I like Chiemi's the best, 'cause she drew pictures. :''D

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 21:33:09 GMT

I wanna cut my hair and bleach, like, ALL of it...
I really want it to be cut like Bou's first...
I think even if I just cut it, though, it'd be fine...and I could easily straighten it. :D
I dunno.

No one would really understand this post unless they were in my head right now. XD

I wish...

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 01:05:58 GMT

I could get someone to read my LiveJournal. -__-;;
It feels so useless to post here, sometimes...
The only good thing about it for me is that I get the feelings out.

Still, though, if no one's even reading them...

lulz~

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 02:35:30 GMT

Today was the first day of finals.
I had Physical ~~Science~~ Psyence [lololol], English, and Gym [lol wut?].
Psyence [still a 'lololol' thing] and English were extremely easy. We had an hour and a half for each test, so I had a good deal of free time in which I reread "Charlie and the Great Glass Elevator."
Fantastic book.

As for the gym final, well, I kind of had to guess on a lot of questions, because I didn't really care enough to pay attention while we actually went over things during class ['cause Mrs. Whitcher is a complete bitch >___>;;]...
BUT OH WELL.
After the rest of the class was finished, we had ample socialization time.

Me, Cassandra, Natasha, Monika, and Abby all hung out it one of the showers in the back of the toilettes. XD
It was...insane.
Monika kept raping everyone. XD;;
Pffft.

Next semester we'll all be having Health together, so I hope that turns out alright...meh.

HOYEAH.
And I'm sick. D'':
Like, what the hell, dude?!
My throat, tummy, and head hurt...
And I'm sniffling. ;A;
It really kind of annoyed me during the tests...
Wah.

Aa well.
Our last day is Thursday anyway.
And we got out early today.
And we start late [9.20 rather than 7.40~] and get out early tomorrow and Thursday, too.
So that's good.

Yayayayayayayaaaaaaaaaaay~<3.

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 00:02:32 GMT

HO'KAY.
Went to Hot Topic [ew...].
Got Dir en grey shirt.
Got Shoxx.
Got Cure.
Happyness and joy. <333

Only problem?
The complete asshole married to my sister was there.
Fucker...
When we were going out to the car, leaving the house, it was all...icy.
So, of course, I was scared and clinging to my sister.
When we actually reach the car and I'm still scared out of my wits, said person gives me "advice" for walking on ice.
In a totally asshole-ish tone, too.
Not to say I'm unused to him talking to my brother and me that way, but...
God. What a PRICK. I hope he gets hit by a car or something. >____>

S'anyway, we were all in the car; my sister and that fucker were in the front, I was sitting in the back, iPod that hates me on - and I started crying, you know, angrily.
So, after a minute, I...sniffled or something, and my sister was all "are you crying?"
And not in a compassionate tone, either, really...
I couldn't really talk for a minute, which is how I always get when I'm crying [lololol], and finally I burst out and told her what the problem was.
When I mentioned that her husband had given me so-called "advice" in the rudest of rude tones, he says "There was no tone."
In the SAME. FUCKING. TONE. D:<
You fucking BASTARD.
Die.

And, of course, my sister didn't hear his earlier comment, so she didn't really know who was right.
I said, quite sarcastically:
"Right. Sorry, Sean. I guess that's your usual [asshole-ish] tone. [Fucker.]"
My sister said something along the lines of:
"Well if that's his normal tone, you should know that by now. It's been over a year, so...And why do you take everything so personally???????????????????questionmark DX"

Well, fuck you too.

So, after that, I asked when we were going to get together as a "family" [HARDY HAR HAR.] and discuss this complete bullshit [she said it would be last Wednesday - didn't happen.] and she said:
"Whenever everybody has time."

Well, guess what?
CJ [my brother] and I are just FULL of fucking free time.
And y'all two aren't too busy, either.
Obviously, then, she's just procrastinating.
That seriously angers me to no end.

Later, when we were in Hot Topic, and I had already found what I'd wanted [the shirt and magazines<3], my sister said that I should apologize.
So I replied that I would consider thinking about apologizing. Maybe. [Not happening. :)]
And she said that it would be a step in fixing the relationship with her husband and myself.
Fuck no. That's not going to do anything but tell that fucker he's won.
Which he has not, and never, EVER will.

ALSO, my mum is nowhere to be found [apparently] so now we're not going over to her house for dinner [sans you-know-who, as per the usual~]. Now I have to either eat you-know-whose shit meatloaf [YOU. CANNOT. COOK. YOU. FUCKING. TALENTLESS. IMBECILE.] or canned soup.
I fucking hate soup.
But I'd really rather have that.
Or maybe a bread sandwich. [3 pieces of bread.]
Choices, choices. :/]

So, basically, the only things that kept me even slightly happy were:
Shoxx, Cure, my Dir en grey t-shirt, and the fact that my brother wasn't on the computer when we got home.
YAYZ.

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssu~~~~

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 18:16:09 GMT

Guess who gets to see Dir en grey in February? [besides everyone who isn't me]
ME!
I DO!

Yesssss.

I'm so happy. X''D

Ugh....

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 21:44:56 GMT

I haven't posted in, like, forever. [not that anyone cares.]

Anyway, today I have a sore throat for no apparent reason...
Last night I went to the anime/manga party at Borders Express [that's what the Waldens was turned into] and saw some friends.
I ended up buying volume 2 of Godchild and volume 1 of the Cain Saga [sort of the prequel to Godchild].
It was alright.

So far in my Japanese classes, I've learned some kanji, all of the kana, and a ton of phrases, verbs, nouns, and things...
Basically, just a bunch of Japanese. XP

I was really happy recently, because exchange students from Iwate, Japan came.
A few of my friends were hosting students, and I got to go to Worlds of Fun with them a couple weeks ago.
The Iwate students were so nice and cool. *-*

On a more serious note, I think I honestly can say that I have little to no love for my sister anymore...
Anything that suggests otherwise is me faking it to keep my mom from yelling at me and making me cry...
Oh, and my dad is in the hospital, again [he was there a while ago and had to have most of his big toe cut off because it was infected...].
Pleasant, ne?

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 22:36:57 GMT

I'mma goin' [probably] - are YOU? D<

I fucking hate...

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 03:09:31 GMT

...HTML.

D<

Waste of my oh-so-precious[ my ass ] time.

But, anyway, today we [ mum, my brother ( CJ ), gram, my cousin ( Erica ), and I ] did a lot of things in this horribly hot land of TEXAS.

We:

*Ate soggy grilled cheese for breakfast. [ thnx a lot mummsie, you fecking bitch. D< jaykayilumummeh~<3 ]

*Rode a train. [ my first train ride ever ]

*Rode a bus. [ my first bus ride ever ]

*Went to an aquarium. [ not my first trip to an aquarium and we got to see sharks yayhappyness<3 ]

*Walked around in horribly hot Texas weather while searching for said museum. [ it sucked even more, by the way, because I was wearing boots and a jacket - black ones - like the Kansas-a-licious dumbass I seem to be ]

*Walked through an IMAX to get to a parking lot where we waited int he sun EVEN MORE for my uncle to come pick us up because Erica was going to be late for volleyball, and gram was going to be late for work if we took the bus and train back which would have also given me motion sickness and who wants that, right? rite.

*Marveled at how large and shiny the buldings were.

*Ate yummy enchiladas and drank soda any my aunt Sherrie's house. [ she's Erica's mother, FYI. ]

And, that's it for the group stuff, actually.

On my own, I:

Drank delicious orange juice, laughed at my mom whose foot had lots 'n' lots of fire ants on it, felt a little bad about laughing at that, felt very hot and bitchy whilst outside searching for the fucking aquarium for God-knows-how-long, searched for a song on my iPod that seems to have mysteriously disappeared, thought about how Emo certain people are, fiddled with my ring every so often, played with Baxter [ Erica's dog ], witnessed said dog peeing on the floor but did nothing, got a stomache ache from the delicious enchiladas, drank two sodas, crunched ice, watched five minutes of television, wasted hours on MySpace and Fanfiction.net and Bingbox.com, ate lots of yummy cherries, went to the restroom [ I'm only human. D: ], ate an ice cream bar [ a Nestle Crunch one, even. Yummehful! ], checked my email obsessively, couldn't remember Who Framed Roger Rabbit because I haven't seen that movie in a long time, and ate a terrible sammich for lumch.

It was terrible because of the strange and watery meat. O___o;;
Nasty.